I sit here on this rainy New Year’s Day, and my two-year old is at my left arm trying to get into my lap. She isn’t alone. She comes bearing gifts such as her blanky, the Leap Frog Fridge Phonics, playing the letter “U” and she continuously presses it over and over again.
The morning is young as we’ve been awake only about 2.5 hours, but still, it feels like a long 2.5 hours to me. Constantly trying to provide entertainment for my children, coming up with ways to be fun I find often to be daunting and a challenge. I want to nuture them, but I also want to equip their minds to play independently and be self-sustaining. I work hard at trying to be ‘crafty’ and do fun things, but I feel there is not a good balance, and that my 6 year-old and 2 year-old feel they need to be entertained by me 24/7. And I’m here to tell you that is an exhausting feeling, especially when you have a 7 month-old you also are loving on and training.
I love my children. So much I do. But when it has been only a few days since Christmas, and the house is filled with new toys, I get frustrated that none of those things seem like they provide entertainment to my children. They just want me. Now, mind you I am quite flattered. But I really believe in my heart that children can play independently without direct interaction from me, or any adult for that matter.
For so long I wondered what can I blog about. I have so many random thoughts that I want to share, but I sometimes catch myself saying ‘that’ wouldn’t be something blog-worthy to others that are looking for some inspiration. But the reality is a blog is meant to be genuine and passionate.
So from this point out, you will continue to see blog posts from me about similar things which have always been on my blog. But it will also be other things that I may have not blogged about in the past. It is going to be real. It is going to be genuine, and possibly raw. But most importantly I hope that you find it to be real, and encouraging. Encouraging in the way that if you too share these feelings at times you may realize that you are not alone.
And so my timer of 10 minutes writing this blog is about to go off, so I’m off to get out the bubbles like I said I would and share some giggle and laughter time with my sweet girls.
Happy New Year!